I am not really sure what just happened… My dad was talking to me about dating. You see, I went to a high school of about 100 people. People I have known since pre-school. You can understand why I never wanted to date in high school… Any who, back to the story. I am not sure, but I think that my dad was saying that I should have dated. I am off to college this fall. I told my dad not to worry because I would date in college. He said that that was what he was worried about. However, then he was going on about how A couple of the guys in my high school were nice. WHAT?! Is telling me that I he wanted me to date in school? I really do not understand. I was busy on having fun with my friends and getting really good grades. I guess having most of my college paid for by scholarships is nothing compared to wasting my time and effort on a guy I do not actually like… I know everybody says this, but I will never understand parents. They say they do not want something, but then make it clear that they do want something else.
Shows that Netflix does not have but should:
My Family, Bill Nye the Science Guy, Monty Python’s Flying Circus,… Many More. Netflix needs to get a clue!
This first semester of college I was seeing a guy. He is a senior and I’m a freshman. The last weekend of October he broke up with me because he isn’t over his ex and he doesn’t feel like he could fully put 100% into something. He told me that it is not fair to me if one of us goes all in while the other doesn’t. One thing that always bothered me about the relationship was that, though we were not officially “dating” our friends knew we were together and he still never treated me any different than anyone else in public. However, when we hung out in his room, we had the best time and conversations.
I respect his reasons for breaking it off. We still hangout, confide in/to each other, and are great friends. The problem is…I still have feelings for him. By the way he still flirts with me, I’m sure he still has feelings for me.
It is December 14. We broke up October 28. Why does it still hurt? I’m crying over it right now.
I was hurt when it first happened. Then I rationalized why he and I could not be together, and I felt fine over Thanksgiving break. I saw him the first day back from break and I hear physically hurt. Now, I want to use Christmas break to get over him, but I can’t get him out of my head. I realize that I am actually heartbroken.
I will admit it, this was my first relationship. I’ve turned to my friends for advice, and none of it seems to help. I turn it to Tumblr. If there is any advice on how I can get over him and stop hurting, I need to hear it. Please….